Motivation

One of the things that I struggle most with in life is prioritizing my time. I think this stems from my nature to want please everyone. You just can't do that; in fact it will make you sick. Going to school and trying to manage work while Ron is gone has been difficult. I get lots done but I feel like nothing is ever completed. I have found myself putting more trust in and delegating more work to students. And why not? It's how I learned about TV and video. I'm even letting a new person work significant time on "my" TV show. I never thought that this would ever happen because I am so control freakish.

My real struggle and worry comes from the lack of completion of my thesis. I love the topic (The Journey of Rocky Balboa - A psychoanalytical approach to the Rocky Anthology) and the fact that I can focus on one of my passions - film. I just can't get the time or the motivation to start writing chapters 3-5. I have to get it done and defended by March 16 and as that day approaches my stress level rises.

Part of the motivational issues come from having that wonderful and beautiful little girl calling me in only the way she can in a soft whisper "Da-da-da." It melts my heart everytime and I just want to hold her and play with her all night. Thus taking away from academics. I know that I must make time to work on academics, but my daughter is growing so fast I hate missing any moment with her.




I pray daily - Lord give me the strength, time, love, motivation, passion, hope, and peace that all things will be accomplished in Your name and in the way You desire for me to do. Let those around me know You are present in my life and that You work through me. Let all things I do bring honor to You. Amen.

Until Next Time...